Not many of us question the life road we’re set up for in our youth. We follow the road instead of forging it. Why wouldn’t you take the well-trodden, smoother path? It is SENSIBLE to work for someone else in a secure (hm!) job and pursue your passions only on the side, behaving and dressing respectably on someone else’s terms.
Perhaps you’ve had enough of living in a way that makes others feel comfortable, but there is no other example available to you. You know what we have to do then? Make it up.
Make up your life, how you live it, what your job is, how you’re going to make money. Live what you dream. Yes.
I was unhappy every day in customer service, because I’m wired a bit differently to my capable colleagues. Chiefly, my head doesn’t translate thought to speech easily. It’s almost like that part of the brain that draws things together, forces cohesion in speech is broken. When I open my mouth I speak in tongues or exquisite corpses, or utter something robotically inane. I can’t pluck one thought from the others, and that makes conversation difficult, particularly since my short-circuit of 2010. That is an advantage as an artist, because it allows me to be inventive and draw unusual conclusions in my private world. And I don’t mind being odd, but I do mind pretending not to be.
That is why I have to my life and my work my way, and I can’t fit into someone else’s mould. I have to do what I’m passionate about in a context that is natural to me, in ways that I find good, and true, and beautiful. And the world laps it up, people. You get all sorts of confirmations that you’re on the right page.
“If you do want to claim the philosophers’ stone and begin living in paradise, but don’t know where to begin, my advice would be: let go of everything you believed till now, make up a fairytale about yourself and believe in that.” William Whitecloud
Have you made up a life that is on your own terms?